conflict......

Over the years there has been something that keeps coming to mind. It is something that is not the profound. Okay....are you ready......I stink at this whole being a Christian thing. I constantly struggle, I do stupid things, I don't pray or read the word enough, I hurt people around me, I am prideful, I often care more about what other think than I do about what God thinks, and there is always to be something that I need to work on. But thankfully God puts amazing people into my life.
I am very grateful for the friends and mentors that I have in my life that are willing to sit down and speak the hard truth to me. Many times I don't want to hear, but I NEED to hear it. God uses the people around us to make us more into His image. Even though it is very tough sometimes, I praise God for friends who show me where I fail. I desperately need people like this in my life. I think through all this God is showing me why I need him. I am not supposed to be good at being a Christian. That is why we need Christ. I cannot live a day in my own strength. As soon as I do, sin happens. I need to immerse myself in the grace and strength of God. I pray that God would give me grace to walk in his strength and be a person who points people to Christ. As strange as it might sound, I am thankful for conflict. When conflict arises, God often uses that to show me the sin that I cannot see in my life. God, thank you for people who are willing to speak that hard truth into my life.

Village Church

My roomate recently gave me his ipod nano. It as been awesome to have one of these. I have been immersing myself in sermons over the past several weeks. There has been one pastor I have been listening to over and over again. He is an amazing communicator and preacher of God's word. You guys should definitely check this guy out. His name is Matt Chandler. I was introduced to him through a message he gave the Reform and Resurgence conference that Mark Driscoll put on. This message absolutely blew me away. It had me laughing, crying, and wanting to know God more. Check out Matt Chandler and listen to this guy. He blows me away everytime.

cultivate delight

Well...it has been a while. I have not come across this blog in a while. From some strong encouragement from a good friend of mine, I have decided to start blogging again. I am looking forward to getting started again.

So what has been on my mind?

Lately I have been going back to a Psalm that seems to be resonating with me right now. I am in a weird place. There is alot of good things going on....but these are things that require me to look to God and keep an open hand with the gifts he gives me. I can easily close my grip on things that God does not want me to have. This is such a struggle for me. So i find myself continually going back to these amazing scriptures.


1 Do not fret because of evildoers,
Be not envious toward wrongdoers.
2 For they will wither quickly like the grass
And fade like the green herb. 3 Trust in the LORD and do good;
Dwell in the land and cultivate faithfulness. 4 Delight yourself in the LORD;
And He will give you the desires of your heart. 5 Commit your way to the LORD,
Trust also in Him, and He will do it. 6 He will bring forth your righteousness as the light
And your judgment as the noonday. 7 Rest in the LORD and wait patiently for Him;
Do not fret because of him who prospers in his way,
Because of the man who carries out wicked schemes. 8 Cease from anger and forsake wrath;
Do not fret; it leads only to evildoing9 For evildoers will be cut off,
But those who wait for the LORD, they will inherit the land.

Psalms 37:1-9 (NASB)

I have been really soaking myself in this passage. I need to hear this everyday......or truthfully every hour. God is bigger then my struggles. I pray that I will walk in his strength.